Fuckinc with me?

I swear someone is fucking with my head......things changing and no one knows why.....then it gets changed back....     Told to do this or that.....then changed back....    First its go go go..... then its I don't know..... now its stop...  Yes I rant without meaning....or so it seems.....but I know what my rant means.  Just don't know what all the changing back and forth means..... I think someone's fucking with my head......

FIREARMS REFRESHER COURSE

1. An armed man is a citizen. An unarmed man is a subject.
2. A gun in the hand is better than a cop on the phone.
3. Colt: The original point and click interface. 
4. Gun control is not about guns; it's about control. 
5. If guns are outlawed, can we use swords? 
6. If guns cause crime, then pencils cause misspelled words. 
7. Free men do not ask permission to bear arms.
8. If you don't know your rights, you don't have any.
9. Those who trade liberty for security have neither.
10. The United States Constitution (c)1791. All Rights Reserved. 
11. What part of "shall not be infringed" do you not understand? 
12. The Second Amendment is in place in case the politicians ignore the others. 
13. 64,999,987 firearms owners killed no one yesterday. 
14. Guns only have two enemies; rust and politicians. 
15. Know guns, know peace, know safety. No guns, no peace, no safety. 
16. You don't shoot to kill; you shoot to stay alive.
17. 911: Government sponsored Dial-a-Prayer. 
18. Assault is a behavior, not a device. 
19. Criminals love gun control; it makes their jobs safer.
20. If guns cause crime, then matches cause arson. 
21. Only a government that is afraid of its citizens tries to control them. 
22. You have only the rights you are willing to fight for.
23. Enforce the gun control laws we ALREADY have; don't make more. 
24. When you remove the people's right to bear arms, you create slaves. 
25. The American Revolution would never have happened with gun control. 
26. "A government of the people, by the people, for the people..." 
27. You can pry my firearm from my cold dead fingers. 
28. Gun control means aiming with both hands.
29. If you can't hit what you aim at, you don't deserve a gun. 
30. I would rather be tried by twelve than carried by six. 
31. "The right of the people to keep and bear arms, shall not be infringed." 
In Accordance With The Prophecy... 
Calling an illegal alien an "undocumented immigrant" is like calling a drug dealer an "unlicensed pharmacist." 

Southern Rules

A few rules for the yankees out there. If you are going to live or visit in the South, you need to know these.
1. That farm boy you see at the gas station did more work before breakfast than you do all week at the gym.
2. It's called a "gravel road." No matter how slow you drive, you're going to get dust on your Navigator. Drive it or get out of the way.
3. The red dirt -- it's called clay. Red clay. If you like the color don't wash your car for a couple weeks -- it'll be permanent.
4. We all started hunting and fishing when we were seven years old. Yeah, we saw Bambi. We got over it.
5. Go ahead and bring your $600 Orvis Fly Rod. Don't cry to us if a flathead breaks it off at the handle. We have a name for those little 13-inch trout you fish for -- bait.
6. Pull your pants up. You look like an idiot.
7. If that cell phone rings while a bunch of mallards are making their final approach, we WILL shoot it. You might want to ensure it's not up to your ear at the time.
8. No, there's no "Vegetarian Special" on the menu. Order steak. Order it rare. Or, you can order the Chef's Salad and pick off the two pounds of ham and turkey. 
9. Tea - yeah, we have tea. It comes in a glass over ice and is sweet. You want it hot -- sit it in the sun. You want it unsweetened -- add a lot of water.
10. You bring Coke into my house, it better be brown, wet, and served over ice.
11. So you have a sixty thousand-dollar car. We're real impressed. We have a quarter of a million-dollar combine that we only use two weeks a year.
12. Let's get this straight. We have one stoplight in town. We stop when it's red. We may even stop when it's yellow.
13. We eat dinner together with our families. We pray before we eat (yeah, even breakfast). We go to church on Wednesdays and Sundays and we go to high school football games on Friday nights. We still address our seniors with "yes, sir" and "yes, ma'am," and we sometimes still take Sunday drives around town to see friends and neighbors.
14. We don't do "hurry up" well.
15. Greens - yeah, we have greens, but you don't putt on them. You boil them with salty fatback, bacon or a ham hock.
16. Yeah, we eat catfish, bass, bream (pronounced brim) and carp. You really want sushi and caviar? It's available at the bait shop.
17. They are pigs. That's what they smell like. Get over it. Don't like it? Interstate 75 goes two ways - Interstate 40 goes the other two. Pick one.
18. Grits are corn. You put butter, salt, and maybe even some pepper on them. If you want to put milk and sugar on them, then you want Cream of Wheat - go to Kansas. That would be I-40 west. Want it soupy and bland? That's called Farina. You want Pennsylvania - you know I-75 North!
19. The "Opener" refers to the first day of deer season or dove season. Both are holidays. You can get pancakes, cane syrup, and sausage before daylight at the church on either day.
20. So every person in every pickup waves? Yeah, it's called being friendly. Understand the concept?
21. Yeah, we have golf courses. Don't hit in the water hazards. It spooks the fish and bothers the gators - and if you hit it in the rough, we have these things called diamondbacks, and they're not baseball players.
22. That Highway Patrol Officer that just pulled you over for driving like an idiot -- his name is "Sir," no matter how young he is.
23. We have lots of pine trees. They have sap. It drips from them. You park your Navigator under them, and they'll leave a logo on your hood.
24. You burn an American flag in our state, you get beat up. No questions. The liberal contingent of our state legislature -- all four of them -- enacted a measure to stop this. There is now a $2.50 fine for beating up the flag burner.
25.It
's pronounced (raid - e - a - tor) not (rad - e - a - tor). And it's a (mowse) not a (moose)!
26. No, we don't care how you do things up North. And no, down here, we don't have an accent, you do.

Watching me burn

You sit there watching me as I burn,
Why don't you help me?
You just sit there and watch me yearn.
But these aren't flames of fire,
These are flames of pain
.
You sit there watching me burn as the blood drips down like rain.
The weight of my burdens it too much to bear.
I cry out in agony
But you 're still just sitting there.
I'm slowly disappearing,
And slowly fading away
But still you sit there watching me burn
You seem to have nothing to say.
As the tears finally swell up in my eyes,
I look at you and cry my last good byes,
But still you sit there watching me burn
Now with a smile upon your face.
You are happy
 now
Knowing that I'm about to disappear without a trace.

Fuck it (note to myself)

Give in to the pressure. Give up on yourself. Forget all of your dreams. You're gonna burn yourself down. Start trying to act like someone different. You're only making a fool of yourself. Give in to the pressure. You're not a martyr and no one cares. Give in to the pressure. Give up on yourself. Forget your all of your dreams. Your're gonna burn yourself down. No one will care. You'll be alone. You'll be fucking destroyed, you fucking waste. You are a waste. And i need to say... Everything on my mind before it all fades away. I've finally had enough. Dealt with your shit for the very last fucking time. And I need to say... What I can't keep inside cuz it'll be more deadly. All that I've got for you is my full fucking fury and I can't keep it inside. No one will care. You'll be alone. You'll be destroyed, you fucking waste. You are waste. No one will care. No one will care.

Silence

"But the perfect reflection of the One is shining by itself in lonely silence, there safely pent as one and indivisible. The unity (of God) is un-necessitous, it has no need of speech, but subsists alone in unbroken silence. The mind is rid of light when it is rid of mode; and it is rid of darkness when letting go of all natural things, it sinks in nameless actuality. Then it loses both light and darkness in the abyss that a creature in its own right never plumbs. Such is the estrangement in one as foreshadowed in the ordinary mind, but the realization of unity which the blessed have lies in the exquisite consciousness of another than themselves. O unfathomable void, bottomless to creatures and to thine own self, in thy depth art thou exalted in thy impartible, imperishable actuality; in the height of thy essential power thou art so deep thou dost engulf thy simple ground which is there concealed from all that thou are not; yet those whom thou wouldest commune with shall know thee with thyself."
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